Trust In God, Then Go and Do

So the last couple of days as I am going to bed I have decided to read my scriptures and study a talk from our last general conference. I prayed that I would be guided to read something that the Lord would see fit for me in my life right now. I read the talk by Henry B. Eyring entitled Trust in God, Then Go and Do. I just wanted to share some of my thoughts that I had and personal feelings I got while truly studying this talk and scriptures that went a long with it.

As I was reading I quickly realized that if I put my all trust in the Lord life would be so much easier. I wouldn't care what people thought of me, I wouldn't care that my hair was not done or that I was not as skinny or as popular as "That girl." I realized that God has a plan for me and if I just TRUST him things will work out in it's own due time. At my age (not that I am OLD) but in the state of Utah it truly is hard to be 25 and not married, and I often find myself really pondering where my life is going if I even have a purpose for being here. After reading this talk I realize how much god does love me and he does have a plan for me and my life.... It might not be on my time table but it is on his and I have got to be okay with that.

I understand more that putting your Trust in God is like having Faith in him. Faith: something you believe in without seeing it. I like to say " I have faith." But do I really?... I feel like if I did I wouldn't doubt gods plan and I wouldn't second guess things that I know to be true.

I know it will not be easy to always keep my Faith and Trust in God 100% of the time because I am human and I will falter but I choose this day to do better at Trusting God and knowing he loves me and if I ask for his guidance and help I need to "Go and do." because great things will happen, he will not take me down any path that is to hard. He too said " I never said it will be easy I only said it would be worth it."

I love you all and I am thankful for this safe place that I can express my feelings. I encourage all of you to read, or re-read the message from Henry B. Eyring and I hope it touches you like it did me.

ShaLynn S.

This is a Safe Place

{Me and P looking not so perfect but that's life and you need a picture.}

Hi Ladies,

I just re-listened to Elder Russell M. Ballard's talk from Sunday and wanted to share something with you all. This is something that I want to yell from the rooftops but I fear the world so I keep it private. Some of you have heard me talk about this, while others probably have no idea.

About 8 months ago I found my life in a mentally unmanageable state for me and I couldn't help but ask myself, "Is this normal?" The answer was NO, it really isn't Meg. I called an old friend and counselor I visited while I went to College in Logan. He gave me the phone number of a Gentleman. When I call this man he gave me a list of names of woman who could probably help me. I prayed about the list and was guided to a very helpful counselor. My first visit with this woman and I found out I am kind of messed up. ;) {I smile because that's beautiful being perfectly imperfect.} I have unhealthy personality traits that are often acceptable/respected by society but very self destructive. I learned these things because I grew up in a home/life with an addict. Daddy, I love you with all my heart but it's true I learned some bad things that I thought would help us all survive. I'm not going to get into it much, besides to say I've started down a path of recovery that will probably last a life time.

I few months into my visits with my counselor she recommended I start going to LDS support meetings for Spouses, Family, and Friends of Addicts. I agree to give it a try, but wasn't too excited about the idea. She had me go to 3 different meetings so I could get a feel for each group and find a place I fit. I went to 2 meetings and they were just weird to me. I thought for sure this assignment wasn't going to work out for me. Then I found a listing for a meeting 30 minutes from my home that met right at Porter's bed time and felt like despite the inconvenience I should get myself there. I resisted for a few weeks and finally went with a very skeptical attitude. Little did I know, this group would change my life, humble me and bring me back to a peaceful place. I went to these meetings thinking I could lift and help others, that they needed me. 2 weeks into it I realized how much I needed them! This group just clicks for me, the missionaries are wonderful, the facilitator- I love her, the regulars are amazing people. I go every week that I can. Some weeks are harder than others depending on where I'm at emotionally but every week I feel the spirit and learn from the 12 steps that have been incorporated with the gospel. Each meeting is blessed by Heavenly Father and each person there is making a scarifies to Him to be there, the Holy Ghost can't ignore such a meeting. It's like church but with a very specific purpose. I leave each week feeling renewed, connected, and loved by my Savior and Heavenly Father. Knowing those things it doesn't matter how crazy I feel sometimes, how chaotic my life is, it's all going to be okay because God loves me! He guides my life and it's suppose to be exactly as it is, and I trust Him! So I KNOW, it's going to be okay.

I hope that each of you have such a place or ritual that brings you back to our Heavenly Father's love. This world and life seems constructed to make me forget but I'm grateful I never forget for very long. I love you all very much and appreciate you making this a safe place to share something so personal. There are people who just wouldn't understand, who would judge me, but I know you'll only love me more for my imperfection... THANK YOU!

All My Love,
Meghann

Long Time!!!

Have been thinking about you all lately. I want you to all know how much I love each and everyone of you. Hope this finds you all well.

LOVE YOU,

Breezy

Another Update!!!

Dad is home!!!! Mom said that by the time they got home dad was pretty sore and stiff. He said that his pain is worse then yesterday but he has been up and moving a couple times tonight. I will admit it, it is kind of hard to see dad like this. He is always up and moving and has something going on. Its hard to see him just laying in bed and can hardly walk. I know that things can only look up from here and he has 2 days down. Love you DAD!!!!

Update!!!

Wasn't sure if this was the place to put this but I just wanted everyone to know that dad is doing good. The dr said that when they got in there it looked like there was an old and a new injury. dr. also said that he might be at the hospital till friday, that they would see how he was doing tomorrow then decide. When I talked to dad he seemed to be doing pretty good, a little groggy but good.
Last night I think he wanted to get the bike out and take it out for a spin for last time for the next little while. So he asked Steadman and I to do. How can we pass up that offer? We are all hoping that he will focus on himself this next little while and get better. He is always thinking of others and never himself!!!! We are hoping for a speedy recovery!!! We love you dad!!!
I hope you all don't mind that I put this on here and I will continue to keep you posted. Thanks all the love and prayers in his behalf they have truly been felt I think not only by him but by us all.

Happy Birthday VAL!!!

You are truly beautiful inside and out! Thanks for loving all of us, being a friend, and example to us!
WE LOVE YOU!!!

Temple!!!!

As I sat in the temple this morning my heart was so full. I couldn't help but think of how great it would be to get all of us that could together and go!!! I don't think that is something we have ever done.
So, I am throwing it out there. What do you think? We could maybe meet and go to the Salt Lake Temple, I am thinking at is a good meeting ground for everyone? We could do it during the week one night or on a Saturday? I was thinking that if we went on a Saturday maybe we could do dinner after or even before somewhere? If we did it maybe we should shoot for the first week in August. I know that is a ways out there, but it gives us time to ask work off (if needed) and not only that, lets be honest this next month can get crazy!!!!
Let me know what you think!!!

Love You All Lots,

Breezy